Alldaybreakfastin
Well Known Member
Hi, me again.
I’m just wondering how others have managed the obvious effects on mental heath/views of self/confidence that a conviction like this can have.
I’ve not been to court yet but since the charge I have been feeling mentally (and physically) horrendous. I can’t stop panicking, anxiety attacks, crying and wishing it all would go away. I feel like I’ve been sentenced to death, and that I’ve a really heavy stigma attached to me. That I’ve ruined my life and all of my seemingly very few prospects. That I’m the worst human ever.
My dad died last year, and I was very down but picked myself up through lockdown to becoming less sad and reasonably healthy (through better management of a chronic illness which is bad with stress). I’d just literally got a job, then this happened and I can’t take it. Though I know I’d never do it, I feel like I don’t want to be around. Not an active thought, more of a passive one.
I just don’t know how I will adjust. Also lockdown has been especially lonely for me being an unpaid carer. I was (clearly much too) excited to get out... now feel like everyone is getting out and happy and I’ve put myself back into lockdown, with a whole loada other issues too. Does this get easier?
I’m just wondering how others have managed the obvious effects on mental heath/views of self/confidence that a conviction like this can have.
I’ve not been to court yet but since the charge I have been feeling mentally (and physically) horrendous. I can’t stop panicking, anxiety attacks, crying and wishing it all would go away. I feel like I’ve been sentenced to death, and that I’ve a really heavy stigma attached to me. That I’ve ruined my life and all of my seemingly very few prospects. That I’m the worst human ever.
My dad died last year, and I was very down but picked myself up through lockdown to becoming less sad and reasonably healthy (through better management of a chronic illness which is bad with stress). I’d just literally got a job, then this happened and I can’t take it. Though I know I’d never do it, I feel like I don’t want to be around. Not an active thought, more of a passive one.
I just don’t know how I will adjust. Also lockdown has been especially lonely for me being an unpaid carer. I was (clearly much too) excited to get out... now feel like everyone is getting out and happy and I’ve put myself back into lockdown, with a whole loada other issues too. Does this get easier?